Christmas...

Okay it's about time I update this bad boy. Truth be told, I really haven't had the time or desire to post anything 'til now.

Earlier this month, I spent a week at home visiting the famdamily. Actually, it feels inaccurate to call it home, it's really my dads house. Um, correction again, it's now my parents house. You see, they got back together this summer.

I visited my mother last in August, in Delaware. My dad lives in Texas and my parents have been happily separated for 8 years. So imagine my shock when mom calls me later that month and informs me that she and the kiddos are going to move to Texas in 2 weeks (because she doesn't want them to miss much school). By September, she had moved. So I go to "my dads house" where my entire family now resides, and they show me the home they just purchased together, which BTW is absolutely beautiful. It was a very sweet, albeit bizarre visit. I'm shocked. Every night eating dinner with my entire family, watching football with my dad while mom baked cookies in the kitchen. Dad's telling me he's going to buy a golden retriever. WTH??? It was too damn weird!!! Of course, to top it all off, I was treated like a celebrity the entire time, I guess just because they missed me. But thats not my parents, especially not my dad. With him, everybody's a dumb-ass, nobody can do anything right, and every word that comes from his mouth is dripping with sarcasm and disdain. Now I won't say he was pleasant, but you could tell he was definitely on his best behavior. Trying to be polite or something.

So I returned to cold dark Alaska on the 13th of December and I've since been living in a world of nostalgia. All that perfection and special treatment I was exposed to, has left me feeling more alone than ever. I don't do very well with loneliness, it's the absolute worst feeling ever. I'm from a family with 12 children. I'm going to let that sink in for a sec… 12 kids. I have never been alone in my entire life, I thrive in chaos. Needless to say, as "delightful" as it's been these past few months without anybody, I'm getting kind of sick of just hanging out with myself.

So I threw my pity party (attendance- one, theme- why me, food- cookies, and drinks- Pinot Noir) on Dec 23rd, and have been feeling better ever since. Although Christmas has not been my friend this year, I did have a great time with some friends and hope to be fully recovered by new Years.

Also worth mentioning, Thanksgiving was spent with family in Fairbanks. It was cold as hell (haha laugh at the irony) but otherwise a really nice visit. I was shocked at how much my nieces have grown in the past 6 months. Seriously, the little one went from baby to toddler, and the big one went from toddler to kid. Sadly, I did not see any Northern Lights this time.

I also bought our tickets and reserved the hotel for O'ahu in April. Brad bought me P90X for Christmas, which I just started and so far it seriously sucks. I tease him, saying he's just worried about me gaining winter weight, but the truth is, I'm excited. It's like a 90 day count down that we are both doing, and by the time we finish he will be home. And we'll both be super hot for Hawaii!! Too shallow? Oh well, still true ;)

And I'll try to update this thing more often. I accidentally left my camera in Fairbanks, so no pictures for a while.